Oh so i'm back and trying again...

OK so I am not a blogger... Clearly... not that there are any followers here to blog too... but anyways... I start and stop my little weight loss adventure so I figured I wouldn't start writing until i got serious... and by serious I mean sitting here at my desk at work in my Sauna suit typing all of this....

So I am legit sitting in my own ass water…. And although it is kind of gross I will admit I feel like I am making strides to my goal… I have also been hitting the gym pretty regularly… which if you knew me at all you would be like amazing… I have lost 10lbs so far… so I figured that I am kind of on my way…

I am also in this weight loss competition at work which is friendlier then it is serious but there is a cash prize so why not right… It has been fun, and some of us are actually trying to we are keeping each other in line for the most part. 

So I got this Sauna suit yesterday wanted to see if I can jump start this program… and I was like well I’ll wear it to work under my work clothes and see how that works… my original plan was to just put it on when I go to the sauna at the gym but I am a genius and figure I can sweat it up all day… mind you now I am sitting here hot as a swamp monkey and this thing is completely stuck to me and I am just wondering how I am going to pee here in the next few minutes since I just drank all that water… (I did bring extra clothes incase this was too much) I just have to figure out how to get the plastic that is now glued to my skin off…. Dilemmas…

Any advice??? Or am I the only one willing to try this in a public place???

2 days in a row... whoop whoop!!

So, the diet not so hot, but i'm super busy... My daughter's 2nd birthday is this weekend and I have made her a bathing suit.. I have to make and decorate her cake. Do goodie bags, and I cant even remember how many kids are coming.. lol... I am beyond tired... I have my surgery consult today for my lower back.. a couple of bulging disks.. ready to get those out so my feet dont go numb anymore and i'm hoping that will increase my activity level as well.. fingers cross please..

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Clearly... Right...  So I started this Blog thinking that it would help me keep on track or at least try a bit... Well not only have I not Blogged but I also kind suck at this whole diet thing... I started the Blog then proceeded to take a vacation with my Family... where I didn't stick to any sort of diet, but I don't think i over ate or anything either. I never really over eat... I don't eat and that's part of my problem that when I do eat I make the worse choices. So you ask why did I Blog today... well... here is the story..

My usual morning routine... Wake up get in the bath to relax.. I have 2 girls age 4 and 2 so I don't get much quite time, so at 5:00 in the morning before work is when I take a nice warm bath and relax... While in the bath I am on Facebook looking at post, when I realize I am tagged in some photos of my children (from vacation) and I see myself in the back ground... and I'm just like UGH how can I delete this photo... Please!!

I know i have a distorted image of myself in my head... and the only time it become reality is when i see a photo of myself... usually I will just avoid this at all cost... well someone got me...  Wishing I knew how to start..

This morning I googled the Biggest Loser Casting... I should realistically loose 120 lbs for a healthy weight for my height... that's a whole person.. right.. so how when I look in the mirror do I not see that... I blame it on my boobs they are ridiculous... I've lost weight here and there before and my boobs never get any smaller they don't get bigger either when I gain weight but they are just there... and growing up my mom always told me as long as they were bigger then my stomach I was ok.. lol... I know that is completely ridiculous... but it has worked for me up until now... they are still bigger then my belly but not by much and now I've developed all these eating issues.. The idea of new foods scare me.. I should seek help... anyways I got off topic here for a min...

So I went to the biggest loser site and they have just casted for this year so casting will begin for next year around April or May. That is a long time away isn't it. One part of me was like I should try to get on... (because that means I don't have to try anything for at least another 10 months) While the other part of me is like what are the odds of actually getting on the show in the first place? Slim... plus its another 10 months and probably another 10 lbs at the rate I'm going.

So what to do... start something.. anything right... maybe taking small steps is a way to start.. Any ideas?? I have to get off the fast food... that was my first step... like just stop eating fast food everyday and that would at least get me heading in the right direction... so every morning i got up told my self no fast food today then comes lunch time and before i know it i'm in line at Chick-Fil-A... what?? how?? so then I was like if I leave my debit card at home, I cant buy food... right... good plan... until I'm half way to work and realize I have no gas and now no money!! dumb!!

So I'm back to trying to convince myself to not go to a restaurant. Make a lunch you say... that doesn't work.. I don't like sandwiches or anything like that, and we have a microwave but the only think I can eat out of one of those is popcorn... I don't like salads... so what do I bring?? Any ideas??

Well hoped you enjoyed my post...

Lets Give it a Shot...

Well... I have never blogged before... but I am about to embark on a journey and figure that if I have people that I have to report too that I will be more committed. Let me start off by saying that I am no writer so please do not expect this to be grammatically correct in any way, nor can I spell so my apologies in advance.

I just turned 27, I actually thought I was turning 26 so I was a bit shocked that I lost a year somewhere. But Since I'm clearly getting older and not so much wiser or healthier I decided I should make some changes. I have 2 girls 4 and 2 and I am married. I had my first daughter and gained 20 lbs. For some reason I thought it would all just go away after she got out of there. I mean it happens for all those skinny girls all the time right... Mind you have have never been skinny, but I wouldn't say i was FAT either. I have just never been skinny. I still wouldn't consider myself fat when I look at myself in the mirror. Its another story in a photo though... Like you know how people with anorexia look in the mirror and see themselves as fat or a completely distorted image of themselves and they go to extremes. Well I think I have the opposite problem...  When I look in the mirror I don't see fat, lately I don't see what i want to see either but then I see myself in a picture and I'm like really?? When did I get that big... So today begins the journey. I just need some followers.

I have never dieted before... and I have a strange phobia of food... I am so Picky and I do not try new foods... The thought of trying a new food freaks me out.. I have a texture issue. I know it is completely irrational, and I will work on it... Maybe that will be another goal... I'll try 1 new food a week... my hands just started sweating... and its not because the people in my office don't turn the air down below 75 degrees. Although I wish they would, I'm not small it takes a little more than that to cool me down... but that's a topic for another day.

So this morning I had a special K protein shake... milk choc... it was gross, the smell alone almost turned me off... so I just chugged it and then chugged some water... Usually I don't eat anything in the am.. I usually only eat once a day I don't over eat that has never been my thing I don't enjoy food that much, I just make really bad choices for what I do eat... I usually visit some form of fast food chain on a daily bases right around lunch time and I just eat... So this I have decided to give up and try eating more meals throughout my day and see if that helps... at some point I will try and start working out, I just have to find the time to fit it in.. that is a sorry excuse, so I am going to make the effort. I just have to change up some things with my schedule and my husbands...