2 days in a row... whoop whoop!!

So, the diet not so hot, but i'm super busy... My daughter's 2nd birthday is this weekend and I have made her a bathing suit.. I have to make and decorate her cake. Do goodie bags, and I cant even remember how many kids are coming.. lol... I am beyond tired... I have my surgery consult today for my lower back.. a couple of bulging disks.. ready to get those out so my feet dont go numb anymore and i'm hoping that will increase my activity level as well.. fingers cross please..

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Clearly... Right...  So I started this Blog thinking that it would help me keep on track or at least try a bit... Well not only have I not Blogged but I also kind suck at this whole diet thing... I started the Blog then proceeded to take a vacation with my Family... where I didn't stick to any sort of diet, but I don't think i over ate or anything either. I never really over eat... I don't eat and that's part of my problem that when I do eat I make the worse choices. So you ask why did I Blog today... well... here is the story..

My usual morning routine... Wake up get in the bath to relax.. I have 2 girls age 4 and 2 so I don't get much quite time, so at 5:00 in the morning before work is when I take a nice warm bath and relax... While in the bath I am on Facebook looking at post, when I realize I am tagged in some photos of my children (from vacation) and I see myself in the back ground... and I'm just like UGH how can I delete this photo... Please!!

I know i have a distorted image of myself in my head... and the only time it become reality is when i see a photo of myself... usually I will just avoid this at all cost... well someone got me...  Wishing I knew how to start..

This morning I googled the Biggest Loser Casting... I should realistically loose 120 lbs for a healthy weight for my height... that's a whole person.. right.. so how when I look in the mirror do I not see that... I blame it on my boobs they are ridiculous... I've lost weight here and there before and my boobs never get any smaller they don't get bigger either when I gain weight but they are just there... and growing up my mom always told me as long as they were bigger then my stomach I was ok.. lol... I know that is completely ridiculous... but it has worked for me up until now... they are still bigger then my belly but not by much and now I've developed all these eating issues.. The idea of new foods scare me.. I should seek help... anyways I got off topic here for a min...

So I went to the biggest loser site and they have just casted for this year so casting will begin for next year around April or May. That is a long time away isn't it. One part of me was like I should try to get on... (because that means I don't have to try anything for at least another 10 months) While the other part of me is like what are the odds of actually getting on the show in the first place? Slim... plus its another 10 months and probably another 10 lbs at the rate I'm going.

So what to do... start something.. anything right... maybe taking small steps is a way to start.. Any ideas?? I have to get off the fast food... that was my first step... like just stop eating fast food everyday and that would at least get me heading in the right direction... so every morning i got up told my self no fast food today then comes lunch time and before i know it i'm in line at Chick-Fil-A... what?? how?? so then I was like if I leave my debit card at home, I cant buy food... right... good plan... until I'm half way to work and realize I have no gas and now no money!! dumb!!

So I'm back to trying to convince myself to not go to a restaurant. Make a lunch you say... that doesn't work.. I don't like sandwiches or anything like that, and we have a microwave but the only think I can eat out of one of those is popcorn... I don't like salads... so what do I bring?? Any ideas??

Well hoped you enjoyed my post...