Well... I have never blogged before... but I am about to embark on a journey and figure that if I have people that I have to report too that I will be more committed. Let me start off by saying that I am no writer so please do not expect this to be grammatically correct in any way, nor can I spell so my apologies in advance.
I just turned 27, I actually thought I was turning 26 so I was a bit shocked that I lost a year somewhere. But Since I'm clearly getting older and not so much wiser or healthier I decided I should make some changes. I have 2 girls 4 and 2 and I am married. I had my first daughter and gained 20 lbs. For some reason I thought it would all just go away after she got out of there. I mean it happens for all those skinny girls all the time right... Mind you have have never been skinny, but I wouldn't say i was FAT either. I have just never been skinny. I still wouldn't consider myself fat when I look at myself in the mirror. Its another story in a photo though... Like you know how people with anorexia look in the mirror and see themselves as fat or a completely distorted image of themselves and they go to extremes. Well I think I have the opposite problem... When I look in the mirror I don't see fat, lately I don't see what i want to see either but then I see myself in a picture and I'm like really?? When did I get that big... So today begins the journey. I just need some followers.
I have never dieted before... and I have a strange phobia of food... I am so Picky and I do not try new foods... The thought of trying a new food freaks me out.. I have a texture issue. I know it is completely irrational, and I will work on it... Maybe that will be another goal... I'll try 1 new food a week... my hands just started sweating... and its not because the people in my office don't turn the air down below 75 degrees. Although I wish they would, I'm not small it takes a little more than that to cool me down... but that's a topic for another day.
So this morning I had a special K protein shake... milk choc... it was gross, the smell alone almost turned me off... so I just chugged it and then chugged some water... Usually I don't eat anything in the am.. I usually only eat once a day I don't over eat that has never been my thing I don't enjoy food that much, I just make really bad choices for what I do eat... I usually visit some form of fast food chain on a daily bases right around lunch time and I just eat... So this I have decided to give up and try eating more meals throughout my day and see if that helps... at some point I will try and start working out, I just have to find the time to fit it in.. that is a sorry excuse, so I am going to make the effort. I just have to change up some things with my schedule and my husbands...
